Well me and my dad are fighting. Not going to say why because he is a moraon. Anyway. I wish Artemis would tell me who the damn werewolf is. Its really starting to piss me off because she dangles it in front of me like food and then pulls it away at the last second. Also this new vampire. I need to know more. The name sounds familer. Too familer. Anyway it am now very uneasy and constantly angrey though i am never depresied for long at least and this fucking freshmen wont leave me the hell alone. She has asked me out like five times and i say no every time. i like someone else damn it. Get the fucking picture, or let me shoot you now. Stop hopeing i'll be your friend shawn. i'm not. i am a loner. i do only what i please and noting else. WHo the hell is the werewolf!!!!! I want to know. besides its not like they exist and if they do this would be the prof.

I came home today and was working outside. I started getting pritty sad and then started to talk to God. Though it was more of a prayer then anything. Anyway i was saying that i was so alone and that i wish i knew my perpose and that i had someone to share it with. I also said that i would wish that he would say something back for once to let me know he was listening. Anyway when i was done i started to work again and then the dogs barked. I turned to see a white tailed deer run past me. It was so beautyful. I mean it was like nothing i have ever seen before. Normaly white tailed deer don't have to white of tails. This deer had a white tail. It was as though it symbolized purity and innocence. Then at the sunset i looked at the lake and the trees behind it were a beautlyful red. it looked like a painting. Nothing has ever stood out that much let alone a deer pass by me no more then 12 feet away. It was so marvelous. It let me know that he was watching. I felt for the first time truly happy. For those brife moments i felt that he had everything under control. That i wasn't alone. I was reasured that he does have poewr.

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I can connect with this song.

gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like the world upon my shoulder
Through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've travelled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've travelled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me
I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me
(And I know) I know you can show me

Let's talk about love (I want to know what love is)
The love that you feel inside (I want you to show me)
And I'm feeling so much love (I want to feel what love is)
No, you just can't hide (I know you can show me)
I want to know what love is (let's talk about love), I know you can show me
I wanna feel it too (I want to feel what love is)
I wanna feel it too, and I know and I know (I know you can show me)
Show me love is real, yeah - I want to know what love is

I find my self in a dept to the world
I have taken and never given back
I owe so much more then i can repay
And in fear i feel i will never reach the peace i want
I except and move on a child of dark desires
A child of hate, fear, and injustice
What must i do in return for peace of mind
Kill,free,hunt the injustice that i am
What is it i must do to right the wrongs i have made
And transegress my fears
Or must i simpely die to the world and every one
Not in fear of lose but instead to protect them
What is it God that i must do